If I was a dollar to begin with, now I'm a handful of change.
And change, my bosses tell me, is good.
Since April 1, I have lost 10 percent of my body weight. I'm a tithe less than I was before.
That translates to 31 pounds, which is actually a tiny bit better than a 10 percent decrease. I started this project at 307 pounds. Now I weigh 276.
I won't lie. I don't see much of a difference. I've dropped the equivalent of a big bag of dog food, but I'm carrying a couple more of them I could stand to lose.
Most of that weight lingers around my midsection, and my face still looks fat because ... well, because it is.
I mean, 276 isn't exactly skinny. You wouldn't want me testing out your hammock or sitting beside you on a plane.
Even so, losing 10 percent of my body weight isn't a minor achievement. I like to think of those pounds as physical objects stacked up on a table — 31 bags of coffee beans rising like a pyramid, perhaps, or 62 half-pound hamburgers.
I try not to equate the weight to dumbbells, which are dense and compact. I prefer bulky objects. If I knew what 31 pounds worth of cotton candy looked like, I'd use that as my mental image.
I also like to think of these physical items springing out of my body and onto that table. I watch myself shrinking at the same rate that the table grows cluttered.
Sounds gross, huh? Maybe it is. But I feel a sense of accomplishment when I picture that table filling up with coins or soft drinks or books or kittens or anything else that adds up to 31 pounds. That's not in me anymore, I think. That's not part of me.
This weekend, I'm going to try something. I'm
I invite you to do the same.
I'm going to pick up a giant bag of dog food, adding 30 pounds to my burden. I'm going to carry that bag with me for a little while.
When it gets too heavy, I'll set it down and walk away. I won't look back.
That much of me is gone, hopefully forever.
Staff Writer Ken Raymond began a yearlong weight loss and fitness journey on April 1.
Here are his stats:
Height: About 6 feet 1 inch
Beginning weight: 307 pounds
Current weight: 276 pounds