I'm going completely insane ... I hate this. I'm in hell. I'm in hell. Shut up!”
Kafka said Underwood wrote several "almost poetic” works about his perception of how other people saw him, including how he thought mothers would pull their children close as he walked by them, and whisper "my God ... I'm glad my son does not look like him ... freak ... druggie ... loser.”
The thoughts were echoed in a meticulous blog Underwood maintained from September 1999 to the day of the murder of Jamie, Kafka said.
"‘I really need a girlfriend. ... My fantasies are just getting weirder and weirder,'” Kafka read Underwood's MySpace blog. "‘Dangerously weird. If people knew the kinds of things I think about anymore, I'd probably be locked away.'”
Kafka said that Underwood had an above average IQ of 128, but social anxiety kept him from excelling in school. The doctor also noted that one of the "saddest things” on Underwood's blog was an entry that was made the day after he killed Jamie.
‘The Missing Link'
The entry was simply a link to a news story that identified the headline "The Missing Link found at last.”
During cross-examination by District Attorney Greg Mashburn, Mashburn asked whether Underwood would continue to be a danger to the public.
Kafka answered, "We all know that he is not well today. He has an untreated, but treatable disorder.”
The doctor went on to say he thinks Underwood's disorders, including a sort of "mild schizophrenia,” bipolar disorder, pedophilia, social anxiety and depression, and the co-existing deviant sexual fetishes, could be treated with proper medication.
Prosecutors, who are seeking the death penalty, will try to convince jurors Friday that Jamie's murder was especially heinous and cruel, and that Underwood poses a continued threat to society.
Citing possible inclement weather conditions and a prosecution witness's inability to testify until Friday, McClain County District Judge Candace Blalock instructed jurors to call in at 10 a.m. today for instructions about what time to return Friday for the final witness, closing arguments and deliberation. They must choose between death by lethal injection and life in prison, either with and without the possibility of parole.